My relationship with my reader

I often don't know my reader, beyond my teacher for an assigned piece. I rarely write with a single reader in mind, because i recognize that my audience changes. I fear my reader. I hold back, fearing harsh judgments. The more effort I put into my writing, the more vulnerable I feel, the more nervous I become when others read my work. I work to fill my pages with colorful descriptions and powerful verbs, trying to impress my reader in a way. My relationship with my reader is like that of a musician with their audience. Musicians pour their hearts out in their lyrics. They make mistakes, face critiques, but they stand strong with what they produce. Even with my worst paper, or dumbest response, I still support my thoughts. I think musicians feel the same way. After what they feel is their worst concert, they will face harsh critiques, but they will also have those fans who support them regardless. When writing, I just want one reader who respects my thoughts, my writing. I look at my teachers as the one unconditional fan, who even on my worst day will support my effort, while every other reader disregards my writing altogether.